About Paula

Hi, Im Paula Horan

Ideally, I would prefer a world without passports and borders and yet with plenty of local participation by the local people of each area, to enable a true culture of love and caring for our dear mother Earth. American by birth, I grew up in Italy and Germany and later attended university in England. In the late seventies and eighties I spent time in California, Hawaii and later Washington state. For the last thirty years, I have lived in South Asia mostly splitting my time between India and Nepal. For a certain period between 2010 and 2017 I also spent time in China and Taiwan teaching seminars and leading retreats

Background

As a child, I was a very shy and would often stay home and read books. My first spiritual crisis happened at age 13. I became depressed and lost interest in life… I disliked school and I just couldn’t fit in. I felt the world was crazy. Fortunately, my mother took me to a kind counselor who told me that my ruminations about the world were not crazy…He told me that in actual fact, the world is indeed crazy. He told me to be patient, that I would only need to be in school a few more years, and that soon I could move out on my own and that eventually I would meet people like myself with a broader vision of things. Just having this reality check saved me.

When I was about 20, I read the autobiographies of Mahatma Gandhi and Yogananda. Each of them had faced a similar spiritual crisis at the age of 13. Later I realized that we are all pushed to identify with ego at this point in development, because in normal society, there are no models of how to be real, to come from truth. Because ego is a made up identification created out of illusory thoughts, a young mind senses the lie behind it, and is often frustrated to find very few adults who have even an inkling of this. Later this insight gets clouded over after years of programming and conditioning.

Luckily, while growing up, my parents were very much into community theatre and coaxed me into it. This helped me with my angst. Playing different roles on stage eventually helped me overcome my shyness and soon I was totally wrapped up in acting, writing plays and even directing. The fascination I felt as I explored different human roles played out on stage, inspired me to study the human psyche in more depth. I soon became a psychology major at university in England.

This lead to my concern for healing the psyche. Later, as a part of my doctoral studies in psychology, I explored the ramifications of what occurs when thoughts and their resulting emotions become stored in the body. This helped me realize that we store our memories not only in our brain, but throughout the entire body. For example if someone has suffered sexual abuse, they will store a lot of charge in the area near the sexual organs in the pubic ramus (bone). Heart centered emotions get stored around the heart or sternum, etc.

We learned to look at a person’s body and read it to see where the emotional blocks are stored and then apply pressure at key points or emotional “Gates” derived from acupuncture. With this method, I could help others integrate a number of stored emotions and free the energy charge of blocks which have sometimes been held for lifetimes. I later added the innovation of rebirthing breathing to this method which I later taught to my own students.

Moved by the profound healing effects of this type of bodywork, I was also drawn to study the basics in order to lay a very strong foundation and derive a better physiological grasp of the body through such vehicles as standard Western Circulatory and Deep Tissue Muscle Sculpting. The profound results of point holding drew me further to Siddha Marma which predates Ayurveda, and Chua Ka which Mongolian warriors once used to remove fear out of the body after battle. Through these methods, I learned how to go extremely slowly and deeply into the body, penetrating into the tied knots both on a physical as well as energetic level to bring greater awareness.

At this same time, I came across Reiki, a form of energy work, while in Graduate School working on my Ph.D. in psychology. One of my professor’s who had been a student of Ida Rolf (Rolfing), had created a school called the Institute of Psycho Structural Balancing where I learned all of the above mentioned forms of body work. Intrigued, I took some of the courses on the side. One day a woman came to offer sample Reiki treatments at the Institute. I was skeptical about this simple laying on of hands technique, because at the time, my experience showed that a therapist needed to do very deep tissue work to create profound changes in the body mind. After about ten minutes of feeling the Reiki energy moving in my meridians and the sense of peace it evoked, I decided that I must learn this very simple method and share it with my clients which I then did for a number of years.

I traveled to India for the first time in 1989 to give a Reiki class. In 1992 on my second visit to India, I met my spiritual master Shri H.W.L Poonjaji, who gave me the name Laxmi. Shri Poonjaji or ‘Papaji’, as he was affectionately called, was a Jnani or realized being who left his body in September 1997. Quickened by his presence, I shifted my focus from self-improvement to the self-inquiry or Vichar that awakens the quiet stillness of awakened presence. This inspired me to elicit the same joy and freedom in others, through the vehicle of Core Empowerment, a six-day retreat that incorporates Gnana Yoga, the science of cutting through the mind.

The purpose of Gnana Yoga, is to help people realize the freedom that they are, by assisting them to experience their own true nature. This is accomplished by overcoming the illusion of ignorance (a mistaken belief in a separate self) by transcending the masks of ego that are sense-dependent and bound by karma.

During my time with Shri Poonjaji, I developed a great love for India and decided to follow his suggestion to stay. After his transition I felt duty bound to help others experience their own true nature as he had helped me. Seeing a need for skilled therapists with conscious presence, I created a modular training curriculum in both eastern and western forms of body/mind treatment in 2000. This lead to the founding of the Taosomatics Institute, a school for integrative awareness which attracted a core group of students, who are now highly skilled and accomplished body/mind therapy trainers in their own right. In 2008 I gave up the institute to simplify my life and focus on sharing Reiki and the Core Empowerment Retreat in two, three month periods twice a year and spend an equal amount of time in retreat in the Himalayas.

Another factor in my life which should be mentioned as it could help others, that inspired me to become an avid researcher on detoxification and rejuvenation therapies is my personal success in treating two breast and one ovarian tumor with raw food diet and Reiki. Thirty years ago I also became acquainted with the therapeutic effects and astonishing benefits of oxygen and of its tri-atomic form, ozone, in regard to healing degenerative diseases such as cancer and also as a restorative rejuvenation therapy. My book Heal Yourself with Ozone is about my own experience and research with tri-atomic oxygen.

The Present

With regard to my current life situation, over the past two years, a strong inner call motivated me to head out on the road to share tools which can help people deal with the strong vibratory shift the earth is currently experiencing. Meditative presence and a strong immune system are necessary today, in order to deal with the onslaught of physical, mental and emotional issues which are currently challenging people the world over. The degree of exploitation and the challenge to future life on the planet call for nothing less than a radical shift for all concerned. For this reason there is a deep inner call for change; a call to break through old conditioned patterns and explore in greater depth, the vastness and incredible potential of our real inheritance, the awesomeness of Wisdom Mind. Today more than ever, for survivals sake, we need to hone our skillful means and wisdom, and let go of contracted ways of being.

Change is now accelerating very quickly, which has impelled me to commit to contributing in a deeper way for the benefit of all. At the same time, I feel called to use this precious time to focus inward, to rejuvenate physically and energetically, and accelerate my own process of letting go, to further enable myself to be better prepared to help people on a more profound level in the years to come. The bottom line, is that we have come to a point, where we will all have to adapt quickly to monumental change.

What I Feel Is Important Now

Flexibility accompanied by a calm mind, as well as a high degree of life force energy, at this time, are important attributes to cultivate. Thus the sharing of Reiki is even more important than ever.

The acceleration in healing knowledge in the last few years is exponential. As a teacher, it is important to me to stay in tune with the latest developments and share them with others.. For example, Taoist Master, Mantak Chia, has added EMDR to some of his ancient Taoist practices (see Fierce Innocence). Buddhist monks in Sri Lanka are enthused about EFT to heighten their spiritual practices (see Emotional Freedom Techniques), and how it supports Dharma practice in clearing not only emotional and physical pain, but ego identification as well.

To help people learn E.F.T. and a few other practices which help clear hope, doubt and fear, (so that we can live in the present and not out of memory), and also relieve both emotional and physical pain and suffering, my contribution is the Heartbreath Program which is based on my book Fierce Innocence. Heartbreath gives the participants the opportunity to transform unconscious patterns and become more present and aware.

Of one thing I am certain: after more than forty years of experience helping people process fear based emotions and doubt: negative emotions carry a very dense energy field which cause us to regress into a selfish ego identified state. Therefore, I feel, the main thing each one of us can do in one cooperative effort for the planet, is to take responsibility for our individual quotas of negative unconscious stored memory (karma) and transform them in a way that brings them into full conscious awareness so that we effectively complete our experience of them.

The bottom line is that humans for millennia have accumulated severe trauma, no matter where you are from. Many of the callous psychopaths currently ruling the planet are themselves acting out their own stored trauma on humanity and they will pay a great price. On a planet of carbon based life, to create machines which suck carbon out of the air is suicidal. To create injectable self assembling nanobots and nanoparticles (self creating mini computers which will eventually take over our brain and pineal gland, essentially kill the human divine spark in us and the capacity to reach enlightment in this physical form, and leave only lifeless memories behind, so our soulless bodies can continue to act out whatever conditioned mental patterns are still stored in the brain? Does this sound like an non-benevolent alien agenda or what? May the sane among us Stand Up and Say No! I Will Not Consent! No to the Bio-Weapons, No to Chemical Medicine and Chemical Agriculture and all further anti-life technology. We are currently purging the demons from the planet, and it starts with us. Each one of us has our own inner tyrant which must be quelled through the use of Reiki, EFT, Meditation and other spiritual pursuits with self discipline and diligence. This is the urgent call of the moment. We must take our power back and do the needful.

It is also certain, that at no time on the earth, have we had such powerful tools available, to so quickly clear our delusory patterns and transform them into the frequency of love and acceptance of both ourselves and others. The purpose of this website is to inspire people to explore these tools. What is important is that we patiently continue to spread the word, until enough people find out that they exist and avail themselves of their benefits.

These days I am based in the Himalayas and offer weekly teachings to my advanced students online, on non-dual awareness. In October of 2025 I will resume my regular teaching schedule.